If Possible, Would You Take Back Those Little Fetishes You Started?

Crossdresser Sheery

Admit it. There have been days where you have looked back to see where your silky little fetishes began. “Stealing” your mother’s panties and/or pantyhose (shame on you) and getting high off of the shame that comes with inappropriately wearing garments of the opposite sex.

Yet, didn’t it all start innocently enough just happening to try on that bra or slip into those pantyhose just to see what it was like? Or even as a joke? Who are we kidding, you don’t just start a fetish. They develop as we experiment as little youngsters and notice our little cocks get off when we keep doing them. Oooh, dressing in my mom’s lingerie turns me on and I don’t know why the fuck that is, but I like it!

Surely, back then, you never even heard of the word fetish or knew that this would turn into a lifelong compulsion. For me, personally during my teenage years, I thought I could “turn off” my crossdressing since I could see it being an inconvenience when dating girls as I went off to college. I did, in fact, turn it off for about six weeks only to return to crossdressing with an extreme vigor. This happen to coincide with receiving a Victoria’s Secret catalog and my first credit card then buying exactly what Stephanie Seymour was modeling on page 20.

I had never really thought of myself as “stuck” being crossdresser Sheery having never worried about it (or in denial all that time). Now, at this point in the game, I never want it to go away. My heart races and cock rages everytime I see something new and sexy for the lingerie closet or pantyhose drawer. And don’t get me started when I see another lovely super-convincing crossdresser. I just may leave women behind when all is said and done, not my beloved pantyhose and lingerie fetishes and definitely not crossdressing.

Of course there are days where I enjoy being (gasp) strictly the male me. This typically means I have no interest whatsoever in entering my female side, usually brushing her off like some pushy hooker. Not even the sight of hot sexy stiletto heels on sale could divert attention from my testosterone phase at that moment.

Don’t get me wrong, though. It doesn’t mean that I feel confession-worthy guilt for all of my past fetish sins and desires, yet the thought of quitting my crossdressing and throwing out the “prized collection” does happen to cross my mind on occasion. Not so much as dwelling in a decision but rather pondering the good old “what if” scenario. You know, what would my life be like more “normal” and not so secretly fetishy. Oh, the vanilla life…

The strange thing is that when quitting crossdressing does come across my mind, not that it happens often, it is followed shortly after by an incredible urge to rip my undoubtedly masculine clothes off and throw on  pantyhose with a swipe of lipstick. Not to mention, longing for another crossdresser to take me from behind… soft at first, then hard.

I guess it comes back to that whole taboo thing. We want what we shall not dare to do. Love it or hate it, it must be accepted unconditionally as you. Therefore, I’ve learned to embrace taboos as being so incredibly sexy. Why on earth would we not want to break them and let them come in your mouth?

4 Comments on “If Possible, Would You Take Back Those Little Fetishes You Started?

  1. Dear Sherri,

    It took me a great deal of time and money to get myself to accept this particular fetish of mine. It is a big big taboo in the conservative society and culture I grew up in. There were times I’ll be ridden with so much gult right after I got off doing those sexy things that I’d purge my collection. With that vow to stay out only to buy more feminine articles and start again a month down the road.

    This cycle went on for years. I can imagine how much more clothes, lingerie, shoes, wigs and makeup I would have today if I hadn’t purged. There would be days that I too, enjoy being the male in me, but of course there’ll be days the diva girl in me pays a visit to the world around me.

    Experiencing and remembering that pure sexual euphoria every time I get dressed keeps me from anything close to considering taking back those little fetishes I’ve started.

  2. I surely sympathize with you SirusG. I’ve never purged my collection but I happen to believe it’s an impulse thing. Wait a couple days and you’ll see the collection as the treasure it always has been.

    Not to mention, keeping your collection helps you relive those memories 😉

  3. I used to do that… purge my collection. It wasn’t huge when I did it, though. I kept my fetish to a very narrow window of just thick, opaque tights. I would wear them, enjoy them, and upon release… feel the most incredible self-loathing and guilt. I kept thinking I was harming myself, damaging my gender makeup. I am male and I enjoy being male. I’m really glad I wasn’t born female… not just because of the reproductive organs hassle, and how the world is skewed towards men, but the “shelf life” of good looks and taut skin is brief. Men get much more leeway. Plus, I enjoy having easy physical strength on tap… and, so easy to pee in the woods! LOL

    Years of therapy and self-reflection got me to change my outlook. In fact, there are so many weirder and more harmful fetishes to be had. I’ve known too many guys who caught nasty diseases (some permanent, like Herpes and Hep-C) because they were sexually promiscuous, driven to made with any hot chick they could find. I love women… but enjoy tempering my desire so that when I do hook up, it’s with someone I can trust. Never got an STD.

    So yeah… I now have quite a wardrobe of hosiery. So many brands. So many deniers. My indulges ebb and flow, depending upon my state of mind. But I never purge.

  4. @Seamless I like freely peeing in the woods too!

    I’m glad I was born male as well yet my female side is definitely gaining traction these days. Yet not to the point where I would physically change to one.

    Glad you got through the turmoil, it definitely takes its toll but nice you came out enjoying it at the end. There is no harm a fetish like ours does to anyone.

    Thanks for your comment!

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